WISHED MY FATE...

part 1: the luminous monolouges

She stood there,watching her reflection with a hint of curiosity, her Brown eyes had an intense luminosity in it.her bronzed skin perfect around her cheek bones and pink full mouth...her hair tied in a knot up on her head.

she was luminous.she was fire itself

the wooden walls and floor of the attic room seemed to grow smaller with each passing day.the lone yellow bulb igniting a yellow glow around the peeling walls.....
absent minded her hands roving around her belly, her stomach deliberately arched forward,she tried to pass compassion to her unborn child...

Kira azar closed her eyes and mouth slowly what she believed in since she was a child

careful what you wish for

for wishes come true

careful what you wish for,

for me and for you

as a child she always saw her self fit perfectly in a white picket fence dream...a doting husband,two children a pet dog and afternoons filled with knitting baking and television.

but as she grew up she conveniently forgot all about it and got carrier oriented.she scaled upward in college with straight A's.but somewhere in her subconscious she still cherished her dream..he childhood wish.

but now here she was, with an unborn child [courtesy: a drunken night fling which she NEVER indulged in before], a ruined carrier that couldn't take a nine month pause,a to-be-single-lonesome-unemployed-mother.she was still calm...still not surrendered to this twist of fate...not given up on her white picket fence dream...

She was wondering now if the baby was picking up her thoughts and would they affect the baby's psyche and screw the bastard up.how easily she had mouthed the word bastard, when she was at her uncouth-sailor-mouthed best..and how that would hold true for her unborn child now on.she wondered about herself as a foetus in her mother's womb...what thoughts did she have then?was her fate decided when she was her foetus.

she wondered what sex the baby was going to be?what would she name it? her name meant fire ...kira...was the sun in persian..azar..her father...9th month in the irani calendar meant fire...a boy would be Kenneth...born of fire...a girl would be Fiamma...oh how trivial and petty she was being...what difference it made..a bastardized child has no name other than that.

she remembered the father vaguely...she wanted to look for him,go a-hunting.she knew they were of a different race..he was caucasian with icy blue eyes...over 6 feet tall.but her mind alternated debated and drove her mad in an attempt to save her child from the societal bastardization...a hundred thoughts swam in her brain,a hundred apprehensions..she felt dizzy morning sickness came an overwhelming way.thats when she heard a thudding soft knock on the door...

part 2: a twist of fate

dizzy she walked towards the door opened...a wave of shock came over her and she collapsed in the arms of the stranger...

when she woke...she looked at him...flashes from the drunken night coming back...she was at the bar...the handomest young man she had seen...airy was his aura...blue were his eyes...they matched those of the stranger in whose arms she now lay...and afer an eternally forver minute of gaping at him in amusement they exchanged words..not from a drunken high mouth...but y twist of fate... from 2 people who were going to have a baby...

he told her that night was an unforgettable one for him...he looked for her evrywhere for the last two months..and he wanted to find her so bad..to spend the rest of his life with her...

she told him about the baby...he was more than thrilled..he made love to her so gently that she would've set the room on fire and he would have fanned it,let it glow,let it burn brightly in his love...

she finally asked him what was thinking when they first met... and he said ''here is one woman who cannot compensate for a million others..i wish i could be tied to her eternally..a bond be made that is unbreakable...

a smile played on her face...she looked in to his eyes and said

careful what you wish for
for wishes come true
careful what you wish for,
for me and for you....